My moral compass is off.

Yay for new notebooks, especially when they're free and they have pockets so I don't have to buy a folder to accompany it.

It's the simple things sometimes.

The only affection I got today was from a store manikin and she was pretty cold and stiff towards me.

Walking past Weber Grill when you're hungry is torture...especially if you're a lover of meat.

Think positive!

NOT I think I can. I KNOW I can. Take that little engine that could.

I hate when the escalators are not working, not because I'm lazy but because it throws me off and freaks me out when I'm trying to walk down (especially when both hands are full). I always feel like I'm going to trip and fall and my shit will get all cut up on the stairs.

"...it's business...it's business time..."

My moral compass is off.

Cassandra is right, using a man for cuddling as a man uses a woman for sex...damn near perfection.

I wonder if NotInterested would go for that. Nah, I don't want to cuddle with him. I just want to use him for sex.

I just tried my hand and shortbread cookies and they turned out pretty darn good. I shall have to make another batch tomorrow or next week.

People are always surprised by my domestic skills. I can cook, clean, sew, crochet, etc. I could be a housewife. Just let me get a part part time job somewhere so I can get out of the house once in a while. Heck, even volunteer work would be fine by me. Just make sure you let me know how much you appreciate me, because staying home and taking care of home isn't as easy as it seems.

I think my goal in Atlanta will to be some man's beard. *laughs hysterically* He can be my sugar daddy and I'll be his beard. Does that make any sense? Whatever. It does to me.

"I FUCK LIKE A GIRL"

I do.

*laughs*

I was almost weirded out by this woman approaching me and introducing herself and she already knew my name. Thankfully she explained herself. I could've gotten some kind of warning or introduction via our connection though.

Court told me to shut up before I even got the chance to say anything. It made me smile knowing that he was able to anticipate what I was going to say.

I *heart* Coaches, even though that bitch is ALWAYS smokey. One of these days I'm going to have lunch or dinner there. The menu looks pretty damn good.

I always feel warm and fuzzy when I'm surrounded by friends who care. I wish I could feel like that when they weren't around as well.

I was trying to be slick and play matchmaker. Normally not my playground, but it was worth a shot. Plus he seems like a nice guy and a doctor (not that it matters, but still a plus).

Megabus ticket for Chicago has been purchased. I'm going to Chicago, I'm going to Chicago. Yay!!! Now all I need to do is convince TheBestFriend that he needs to come down to visit.

The short bread cookies are so good I'm going to have to make more tomorrow, next week is too far away. I can't stop eating them.

WTF!!! I don't even know what else to say about this.

I haven't cried in a few days. This is a very good thing. Things will slowly begin to get better. [I spoke too soon.]

Must do laundry. And think about what I'm going to pack. Let's check the weather.

Don't let the words that come out of my mouth fool you. I'm not okay or well or good. I just say that because I don't want to talk about it.

Things are so up in the air. It scares me. I need order and structure.

Man and Wife TV: Dick Stew. *rolls on floor laughing*

I think NotInterested is getting a little tired of me being a whiney jackass.

As much as I want sex right now, I'd settle for a romantical kiss.

A LOT of my personal life is on the internets. Photos and what not. I sometimes wonder if it's too much.

Suicide crossed my mind today. I know I could never go through with it. I'd have to choose a method in which I KNOW I wouldn't survive and the only thing I could think of is a gun and there are still too what if's with that.

I just want to disappear for a couple of weeks and when I return everything be okay again. As if that reality would ever happen.

I wonder what it would take to get a ticket out to Tulsa for a few days. What the heck is out in Tulsa you ask??? TheTrackStar. It's cheaper to fly from here to Tulsa than Atlanta to Tulsa.