"...want to be loved..."

das Wochenende

Yeah trying to go from 6g to 4g after only two weeks without the help of a professional piercer...not a good idea. *winces in pain*

Patience nerd. Patience.

"...for you I'd do anything/even if it means I let you go/never know what you mean to me/'cause I never let my feelings show/thought this crush was just a game/now I know that this is very real/way I feel may not ever change/the fantasy of you with me surreal/what am I to do/this heart of mine is blue/just can't get...over you/how can I move/the thought of you so strong/just can't get over you/'cause every now I think I'm crazy/even ever to try to make you mine/can't you see this is killing me/to know deep down inside I'm not your kind/silly dreams lead me right to you/where you hold me tight/treat me right/love me like you loooove/love to be loved/want to be loved/the one and only me/just can't get/how.../what am I to do..."

I really hope I get to see him this go around.

The Circle is full of debauchery and tomfoolery on Saturday nights. It's really great for people watching. I'd love to sit here on a warm night with him and cuddle/hold hands and silently enjoy his company and watch.

I feel like I'm still on the verge of tears. Like it's still marinating inside.

When I sit back and take a look around I often feel like I'm the last single girl left of all my female friends. It's not true. I'm not. But that's how it feels a lot of the time. Heck even my co-workers have someone.

Who's going to help me cross something off of my Summer List? And what's it gonna be. I think I've made some good progress so far.

There are a lot of nights I should keep my butt at home and be productive and/or just chill out. But I can't help myself. It gets lonely at home and sometimes a little suffocating. I'd rather be out. Plus it's summer and oh so nice.

People do some bizarre ish to their cars. And this is just a regular Saturday night. I can't imagine what Expo weekend is going to look like. I might have to bring my camera out.

I think I might be afraid of love and I wonder if I'll EVER be able to let go enough to fall in love and let someone love me back.

*sigh, sniffle, weep*

Give me consistency.

That dude has the right idea. A plain ol' bicycle with a motor. Peddle if you want to, probably don't even NEED a license for that.

I want to be wealthy and recognized, but I don't want to be famous.

*waits patiently to see what Grey has done with the photos from the shoot yesterday*

I'd wear more dresses if I could find ones that fit properly.

It's amusing when you're sitting alone and you catch someone doing something and you look over and the person next to you caught the same thing and you glance at each other and smile/laugh at what is sort of like a little secret you now share.

I quite enjoy reading at bars. Yes, I'm a nerd and I'm okay with that.

Com is just not right. He gets everyone effed the eff up...and then dips. Come on dude, that's not cool. A shot and a beer is good enough. You don't need to add a mixed drink on top of that. No means no.

The highlights of the night of course are: a) Rocco putting up such a fight getting into the car that they threw him into the trunk and b) Grey hopping out of the car and running to hide behind a tree when I got dropped off because he thought they were going to let Rocco out of the trunk and he didn't want to be around when that happened.

Oh what a night!

No hangover! I get faded easy, but I come down quick. My skin felt like it was on fire, but my teeth were chattering because I felt a little cold on the inside. I'm thinking no more drinking for the rest of the summer and if there is any...I'm sticking to beer/cider.

Mmmmm...garlic fries from Boogie Burger. Who knew potatoes could taste so good?

I WON THE LOTTERY!!! Okay so it was only $5, but I still won. I even told the cashier I was going to win.

Magic. *winks*

I had a great time hanging out with Les in Broadripple. Fun and relaxing.

If I could put as much time and effort into myself, projects and my business as I do BSing around the house I'd be one successful and productive mother effer.

Ugh...checking out my brother's MySpace page just to see how he's doing and then seeing photos of him brought me back to what he'd done to me. And now I'm just disgusted and angry. I could've done without that for the night. I HATE that idiot. Yes, I said hate.

*weeps*

The 4th of July is OVER...knock it off with the firecrackers already you bastards. I'm trying to relax/sleep/etc.

The beginning to a long work week. Let's put on a happy face and make the best of it. Yes?