I'm not going to call him.

Did this random heffer really just ask me a question while I was clearly on the phone???

I didn't cry today. I wanted to but only a lil' bit.

Why does TheNewBoy have to be so effin' cute. He looked damn good today.

I wish he'd just tell me what he's looking for so I can decide whether or not to stay or leave. It'd probably help if I asked. I'm so willing to be patient with him with regards to his children and what not.

I really shouldn't talk about people...but WTF are they thinking when they walk out the house dressed like that. You wear a strapless bra with a tube top or if you decide you've got to wear a regular one...where a jacket or something to cover up the straps. And the ribbons on your shoes tied around your pant legs...not cute...even if you had on skinny jeans...probably not cute either.

I had a bad attitude today...can you tell?

I can't believe the weather has dropped 30+ effin' degrees. What the hell is up with that???

That Jehovah's Witness was a cutie...he also looked like he was about 16-17.

It's funny how you think about someone and then all of a sudden you get a text/phone call from them.

I can't believe it snowed a little bit today.

Why did I wake up thinking about Tequila and beer? I haven't had a drink in awhile. Not that I drink often. I was thinking about sex too...but that's pretty darn normal these days.

Stupid late fee. My fault of course.

Heliotrope = Purple

Why couldn't they just get my order right??? Maybe it was for the better. And why if the distribution center is up the street and around the corner does my ish have to go all the way to Ohio and then come back to Indiana. WASTE OF TIME AND RESOURCES!!!

Alcohol does not help when all you can think about is sex. And you shouldn't send text messages to people about it.

Random White Boy: It's cold.
Me: Yeah it's cold, that's why you should have a jacket on.
AB: *Hearty sick people laugh*
Random White Boy: *crickets*

I vocalize the randomest shit to people sometimes. I'm not always as quiet as people seem to believe.

My finger and toe nails are eff me red. Now all I need is someone to eff me.

*laughs*

I can handle the toes since they stay hidden beneath socks...but the fingers are really gettin' to me.

I'm having a I just want to curl up and not talk to or see anyone for about a couple of weeks phase. But I work and therefore must leave my apartment and of course there are bills to pay.

I'm trying to combat it by going to work today on my day off.

That cry is still bottled up inside of me and I'm ready for it to come out. I've squeezed out a few tears, but that's not enough.

I like that I've been requested to do certain tasks at work because I do that good of a job. Check out my "Ladies of the Night" in the window. I didn't put together all their outfits, but I had my hand in some of them.

Apparently Boss Lady No. 3 thinks that Boss Ladies No. 1 and 2 protect me and play favorites. I can see how IT may appear that way...but 1 and 2 give very good explanations to their reasons as to why I'm assigned to do certain things.

I'm not going to call him.

I really want to go out dancing. I want someone to hold me close as we dance.

I get to stay home ALL day today. And I'm staying in my PJ's all day.

Loverly.

I don't get why people go out and buy brand new outfits that they'll only wear today. Seems like a waste. Eh whatever.

That cry is coming out little by little.

The advice/help/words you need come from the oddest of places sometimes.

Three hours on the phone with TheStudent. Always conversation. I can't wait to see him.

I appreciate his support and encouragement. It amazes me.