...the rain won't last forever...

What is it with guys inviting me to family gatherings or wanting to bring their kids by after knowing them only a week? Do I ook like a people/kid friendly person?

Reconciling bank statements sucks ass. That'll teach me to get back to keeping up with my ish. I can't wait to shred them all. It's so calming.

My wisdom tooth that's STILL trying to grow in hurts like a mother effer. Someone just knock me out please.

To the Waitress at Alcatraz: Bacon = pork, sausage = pork, ribs = pork. Your menu isn't that extensive, you should know it better than that. Oh and you should never reach in front of a customer your arm inches from their face.

To the Host at Alcatraz: Although you're cute and smelled nice, you over stayed your welcome. And why did you keep touching my arm. Were you flirting? I'm trying to eat, quit touching my arm.

Oy, I had another episode with my heart at work. Nearly passed out. It's been a long time since I've had an episode. I need insurance so I can get that checked out again. I wonder how many other health issues I have that I'm overlooking.

The weather is perfect today.

Oh sweet nap...you seem to enjoy visiting a lot these days.

I'm tired of these headaches. I've never had so many headaches in my entire life as I've had in the past six months.

TheBestFriend has discovered my blog. [*waves hello to TBF*] I'm glad he's able to find humor in them. It makes me smile that he thinks they sound JUST like me and they bring back old memories. Dude, we have to get together soon over pizza and beer. Pizza for me and beer for you of course.

Where the heck did that bruise come from?

It would be nice if someone spoiled me for a couple of hours. Walk along the Monon, a picnic, reading with me, rubbing my head. I'm easy to please.

Some days I wish I were back in college where the only thing I really had to worry about was making sure I got up and went to class. Life was much more simple back then. No responsibilities so to speak and no one to really answer to.
*sigh*

It's time to recolor my hair again. Wish I could go blue black with the platinum/silver bangs. Bleh...not in the budget.

Effin' headaches.

Another stack of magazines in the trash. I never planned on reading them, but the subscription was free. Waste.

Free is so hard to resist sometimes.

I can't figure out if some days I'm just that laidback or just really starting to drown in depression.

I have to stop taking such long naps...especially at 7 o'clock at night.

It's creepy when you're laying in bed at 2AM and there's someone standing outside your window sneeze-coughing. It also makes it harder to fall asleep. Just another reason I dislike living on the first floor. I'd shut the window but it's too warm.

I believe the above contributed to the creepy dream I had. Someone breaking into my apartment via the window and I was helpless, screaming and nothing coming out. Woke up and said I was gonna shut the window. Fell back asleep only to dream there was someone sitting at the foot of my bed watching me. Woke up shut the window and couldn't fall back. asleep, was paranoid there was already someone in my apartment.

Who was tired at work today because they didn't sleep well???

*raises hand*

"We don't get unlimited chances to have the things we want..."

I'm feeling slightly abandoned at the moment: cancelled dinner plans, no follow through on a lunch date, everyone going out of town for the weekend, etc.

*heavy sigh*

I *heart* fake dates [aka dates with friends, nothing romantical]. They're easy and fun and comfortable. And sometimes good practice. It's easy to be yourself and if you come off as a little crazy it's okay. And...you know your friend will still call you the next day.

I'm stepping out and giving my notice that I will no longer inhabit my current residence when my lease is up. I got two months to find a new place to live and another job to pay the rent.

*wrings hands nervously*

If you see me freaking out/crying about not having a place to live slap me one good and tell me to man up because I'll find something and be alright. No seriously...please do.

"I wish I could change...I wish I could change...I wish I could stop...Sayin' the same ol things..."

"...Before I could even finish that thought, Shorty hands her the gum and says, 'Slay that dragon...'"

*rolls on floor laughing"

Five hundred a month to sleep on an air mattress in the living room. Psssssshhhh, yeah right that's ridiculous.

Obsessing about the apartment I want and haven't even looked at it yet because I'm afraid I'll fall in love and sign a lease and then not find a job that will let me pay the rent. Ergh...damn obsessive personality.

"..sometimes my burdens get so heavy...and it seems too hard to bear...sometimes I feel so empty...and it feels like no one's there...somebody said that nothing lasts forever...just the storm so I've been told...but it seems like when it rains it pours...and you know the rain won't last forever..."

Eff it, I'll make an appointment to take a look.

I got four days off and I know I'm gonna spend the majority of them holed(?) up in my apartment being so very unproductive. Why? Because that's just how I am. It's a shame.

I know I should go eat something...but I don't feel like it. It's not that I forget to eat...I just go 12+ hours without eating because I don't feel like making or hunting for anything.