I want to waste time with him.

I quite enjoy walking to the bus stop even when it's cold out.

Do I have a lot of emotional baggage or do I think I just have a lot of emotional baggage? *shrugs*

It's like what 40 degrees outside and this man is wearing shorts again...but then has on a big puffy jacket. Does that make any sense?

Why am I always attracted to men who seem to be unavailable one way or another?

Effin' sucks.

I think I look kind of funny now. I was checking myself out in the mirror at work...which I actually do quite often and my thighs look thinner and now I feel like I don't look as proportional. Huge titties and not as thick in the booty and thighs. This is going to be quite interesting.

Must think happy good thoughts.

"Do you know who Joseph Addai is? Well he's signing things and I have to get this to somebody." Said by the irritated woman who was being "harassed" by the straightening iron girls. They are mucho annoying. And how hard is it to just say, "Sorry not interested," and keep walking?

Can you believe they're already playing Christmas music. Ugh. Thankfully it's a mixed tape with Christmas and regular music. I'm so not looking forward to the ALL Christmas tape.

I want to waste time with him.

Sushi and Tempura Ice Cream at Sakura = mmm mmm bitches. Thanks Allison.

I have an interview tomorrow morning and I'm not nervous. It'll probably kick in when I'm walking into the building and I finally sit down with the women who are interviewing me. Let's hope I nail this.

It seems my brothers friends ALWAYS come across my profile when they're searching for him. Hey are you so and so's sister. I'm trying to find him. I wish his profile would come up when people searched our last name.

Good ol' Mr. DeMar always has some good insights. I wonder how many other people can see past all my bullshit and the wall that I put up. It's amazing how he can see how different I am, depending on who I'm with. Do other people see that too?

I'm not even nervous about this interview. [It went okay, I ended up interviewing for a different position. 2K more a year even.]

I *heart* when a light breeze blows through the trees in the fall making it rain red and orange leaves. I just want to lay in the leaves and make leaf angels.

NOW I'm ready for fall...but the winter cold can stay away just a little bit longer.

Why did the bus driver ask me how his wife was doing today? I appreciate when the bus drivers are friendly, but dude...that's not cute. I'll sort of be glad I'll be on a new route starting next week.

I DID NOT win the $500 Gift Card from AE. :( Damn it...that would've be so very nice.

For a brief minute I wanted to cut off all my hair and go short and funky again. Then I walked outside and realized that long hair keeps the back of my neck warm.

I want one night with him where we fuck slowly. Kissing, touching, licking, peeling off each others clothes slowly and just taking our time to savor every last minute of it. See what listening to Boys II Men will do to you.

*fans self*

Awww...FlashDance is gone. *sheds a couple of tears*

So many changes and things going on this week. I'm not sure I can cope.

My ex's sister has informed me that their aunt still keeps the picture of me and him on display. Apparently the new fiance doesn't appreciate it and would like for it to be taken down. Sorry girly...they got still got love for me...8 years later.

All my friends keep telling me to move to where they live. It'd be nice...but I'm good where I'm at for now. Indy isn't forever...but it's for right now.

J. Brookinz pointed out that all my close female friends leave me. Thanks dude...like I needed that.

Who the fuck is the Snitch? And how does he know my last name? Months later and I'm still wondering.

DJ Bombay and Ohmega Watts = hot.

Really need to start packing.

WHY can't I stop thinking about him???

*sigh* Time for sleep.