What is that?

"...This how I feel when I'm around you...sky would fall without you...heaven's lost without you...and it's gone be alright...when I'm around you...sky would fall without you...heaven's lost without you...and it's gone be alright...I'm reminded of my first crush...the wobble in my knees, first touch...summer love ice cream cone...nights shared with you...nights spent alone...butterflies, first love...sweaty palms embracing a first hug...I'm moved to say in thought of you...I can't imagine living life without you..."

Thursday

WTF? ThePsycho's immature self threatened me yet again. And now he's trying to plead his case AGAIN...I wish I could post this IM...well I could, but really I don't want to put his ish out there like that. Let's just say I feel like I'm chatting with an irrational woman (because yes, I know I've sounded like this before).

Seriously though...he doesn't know who he's effin with.

I find the whole situation ridiculously funny. And FlashDance is right, I am quite non-chalant about the whole thing. Best believe though that I will be giving his information to several sources just in case something happens.

So this is what it's like to have someone create drama in your life.

I *heart* the new Central Library.

I could've spent the WHOLE day there.

A big juicy steak would be really good right now.

I'm still quite lonely...and quite broke.

*deep heavy sigh*

But still hopeful.

How is it I'm still hopeful that there's someone out there for me after shit like ThePsycho happens?

Retail holiday season SUCKS ASS!!!

I want to be kissed and cuddled.

Friday

I want deeply for him to just hold me and let me just be. I'm doubtful it will ever happen...but can still hope.

I'm BROKE! Like for real broke.

Momma needs a new hustle.

Suck it up and come to work. You'll survive, you're not dying. People are depending on you.

I don't want to work my on call tomorrow, but damn it I can use the money.

I don't like my new bras...why can't my old ones come in bigger sizes.

Stupid bras.

That jacket at Aero looked good on me. *deep heavy sigh* Need more money.

Anyone need any cards or hats or scarves??? I'm quite creative and talented...and I can use the money.

I still want a big juicy steak. I'm thinking it'll have to wait until next week though when I get paid.

I find that lately I'm very laidback/non-chalant about a lot of things lately. It's not that I don't care, it just seems like it's not that big of a deal. *shrugs*

I haven't seen him in over a month. I wish we could just sit and have a cup of tea/hot cocoa together and talk. [*laughs* see text below]

Work and come home. *yawns* I has no life.

"Tee hee..." I know what that text means. Why can't you just say what you want? Bring your self down here ASAP.

Saturday

Ooo boy you are looking so damn sexy tonight. Why you gotta do me like that?

Actually I probably wouldn't mind having your baby...but uh...not like that.

I'm thankful we were able to spend some time together. I wasn't sure how things would work out after I told you how I felt. I'm glad we can still spend time together like this. I just wish it was more often.

I DO NOT have an Indianapolis accent.

Thanks for switching places with me...two hours of sleep wasn't much, but was a whole lot better than the none I was getting.

It's been so long since I've shared my bed with someone. I quite enjoy my space, but it was nice to have him there.

I know you're just giving me a hard time so that I'll get my act in gear. It does help. But your little jabs hurt sometimes. I'm more sensitive than you might think I am.

It's snowing.

You'll never have to force me to give you hug. I'd let you hold me for hours.

What??? I'm cheating on you because I went out on a date?

TheFireFighter is trippin'. I'm not his.

You definitely won't be finding out about last night/this morning. And how can you ask such a question?

*sigh*

No worky for me today. I could've used the hours...but having to trek through the snow would've been a bitch after.

I NEED internets.

A wasted day. I need to prioritize and be more productive with my time off. No internets, but many other things I could be doing.

Like all those lovely crochet projects.

Ugh.

Sunday

"Fear is like a wound within our emotions. You heal a fear much like you heal a cut on your hand. If you ignore a cut on your hand, it will get infected. But it will heal itself if you pay attention to it and give it time."

*deep heavy sigh*

I can't stop thinking about him.

Today would be a lovely day to have a snowball fight and then curl up on the couch with each other and enjoy hot cocoa and each other's company.

*deep heavy sigh*

Today WILL BE a productive day: laundry, crochet, cards, writing, etc.

I'm hungry.

How can I earn some extra money that doesn't involve anything illegal???

Ugh...there's no talking to TheFireFighter sometimes. I'm not sure why I bother.

MUST FOCUS.

I'm not looking forward to having to go out in the snow tomorrow.

"...at least we can try...but here's what we gonna do...cause I understand you...let's make out just one more time...I will wait on you my dear...even if it takes one thousand years...I believe that love will see us through...but for right now here's what we gon' do...forever i will wait on you...and I hope you feel like I do...it's so hard for me to wear my watch...because all I hear is tick and tock...

I could spend every night with him. It seems crazy that some people make you want to do things you normally wouldn't do.

What is that?

FlashDance will be back in a week. YAY!!!

I was actually fairly productive today. It feels good. I could be a little more productive, but I think I'm good. Still need to get ready for work tomorrow.

Still can't stop thinking about him.

Pleasuremax. *giggles*