You make a dude wanna fall in love.

A LONG list that's been marinating. Basically I've been a little list lazy. I'm thinking it's at least two or three weeks old.

Dickmatized...I am. I have to get past it.

"You have to wait a little a while before you can show someone your true self." <--- I'm not sure how I feel about that statement.

This situation effin' SUCKS. I mean really...it does.

Gotta get out of this funk!!!

"Just so you know, they don't serve Ding Dongs here." Thanks Nick, I wasn't sure.

J.Moore made a real good comment about eating Ding Dongs. I wish I could remember it.

I've heard quite a few people say that their mate makes them want to do better and be a better person and that's why they're with them. I have a friend that makes me want to do better and be a better person. That seems kind of weird to me.

Going back and reading my other blog...I think I write pretty well at times. I don't know why I doubt my writing skills.

I'm not sure what I'm doing other than torturing myself. :(

let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.let go.

When it's late and nice out and I just need time to myself, I really want to walk home sometimes. I know it's not safe. I'm thankful that I have friends that care enough not to let me do it.

change.change.change.change.change.change.change.change.change.change.change.change.change.

It HAS to happening. It's coming.

"...let the boys make love/let me fuck ya from the back/hair pulling, hot wax/they won't do it like that/they won't tie you by your wrist/and spank ya lil sexy bad ass, cum quick/yeah I know you hard at work/yeah I know your boss a jerk/you can come to the platter/tie you up with your skirt...girl gon' lose your mind/let my dick touch your spine/cum four or five times/southside bump-n-grind/young lady stand in line/but I wanna fuck you/and all ya freaky dreams/I wanna make come true/like fucking on the back porch/go on let it out..."

I bet you can't tell what's been on my mind.

I had a potential client cancel a shoot we had set up, my gut told me she didn't want to work with me. I was bored today and thought I'd check out her photos since I noticed she had a new profile photo and low and behold it appears she went with a photographer she actually questioned me about (I had nothing to say since I didn't know them or their work). I hate to say it...I'm not the BEST photographer, but the images they gave her. Eeesh...blurry, bad lighting and layouts and little creativity. This definitely makes me more confident in the work I do. Now if only I could figure out how to express that confidence...as I'm told I tend to come off very humble at times.

Why is it when you smile at old people they still look at you all grumpy grumperson?

I'm having bouts of wanting to settle down these days, but I really can't imagine what it'd be like to be committed to one person. I think I'm a little scared and selfish, having to consider how my actions are going to make someone else feel. Actually I know I'm a bit scared, I have to get past/passed that.

Consistency. Very much needed. Doesn't need to be in romantic relationship form.

You called at 330 just to hear my voice? Dude the only reason you should be calling me that late is if you want have late night relations, I'm sleep.

"You make a dude wanna fall in love."

Asking to see my portfolio over lunch/dinner = LAME. Coffee...maybe. Lunch/dinner sounds like you're trying to make a date of it. I don't think so...especially since your by dropped the ball and said you've been trying to talk to me for months.

It doesn't impress me when men try to speak to me in tagalog. I don't speak that language. If anything it just annoys me because I don't know what's being said. Quit showing off. It's lame.

It's been so long since we've talked on the phone. I enjoy catching up and just talking.

Hi-effin-larious

He's kind of right, I do sort of just drift along and go with the flow, which causes me to end up in the situations I end up in. I probably need to be more aware of what's going on and gain a little more direction or who I might end up doing something dumb.

I LOVE sex. Very much. I forgot how much I really enjoyed it up until recently (I think a six month hiatus makes you forget sometimes. I guess it's true, the more you get it the more you want it). Partaking in hot sweaty, oh god yes, sex...can I get some more of that. Even when there's no connection, let's just do this so we can both go on our merry little way sex. There hasn't been any make sweet love sex in a looong time, but I bet that's pretty effin' good too.